Wednesday, February 15, 2012

the story of 'To Unity'

in honor of the birth of Laura Kate and Andrew's son, here's the story behind the song i wrote for their wedding!

i had the privilege of playing with a great group of musicians while in college and grad school.  Casting Shadows was a band that formed from an opportunity i had to record some songs i'd written; when offered the chance to go to the studio, i decided that i needed the help of the worship band i was blessed to lead with, and we ended up writing songs together as Casting Shadows after that session.  my friend David Phillippi played bass for CS and laid down a track for WeddingSongs - 'Awake.'  Jon Pritchett played electric guitars, and now he is a Doctor (while still shredding guitar with Visio Dei church in Raleigh). Matt Epler played drums, and still plays with me at LiFT and when i get random opportunities to lead worship out and about. Laura Kate Harvey Lupton played keys and sang lead/harmony vocals, and i'm glad that she and her husband are back in the Cary area for a short time before they head to Colombia on mission.  Maybe we'll write another few songs together before too long!  Part of the Lupton family's call to Colombia is equipping the local church to write and sing songs for worship.

LK gave me the opportunity to write a song for her wedding while i was still pretty new to this wedding-songwriting thing, and i was very grateful to craft something for a close friend.

with LK and Andrew's song, i really began to finalize the types of questions that i ask a couple for whom i'm writing.  i like to know how they describe each other - what phrases and key words that come to mind when they think of their future spouse.  i also ask how they first met, and if there is a moment they can recall when they first decided that they loved the other... those are often potent memories!

Andrew is a theologian, and they are both very Jesus-centered people (as all Christians are called to be - these two live it out well!).  What started to come across to me, particularly from Andrew, was the weight of the gospel that he felt in this process of getting married, and the joy he took in knowing that he was picturing the gospel, and manifesting the image of God by pursuing marriage.  This started to sound like very trinitarian language to me, and that got a few thoughts rolling around in my head...

turns out that LK loves the mountains of East Tennessee, and Andrew is a mountain boy, and he actually proposed on a mountainside.  I'm pretty sure that's an obvious set up for a song, so i took a cue from this scene and included it in the chorus of the song.  The chorus and verses continue on in a fashion that i hope was meaningful to Laura Kate, who was a music major at CU and has music in her soul - the movement of melody, harmony, and unity in music seemed to me to be another picture of the Trinity.

and, LK being a songwriter, i asked her what she had written for/about Andrew and she was gracious enough to lend me the bridge of this song (the last part here), from a poem she had written.

here's the lyrics!

You opened your mouth, and sang of home
I was already singing the same tones
My voice caught in my throat as you showed how you love me
My ears ringing with the melody underneath

The music of these mountains 
Is sweeping me away 
From melody, to harmony, to unity 


So I’ve opened my mouth to sing with you
This harmony draws out a melody more true
I’m surprised by how uniquely I hear both parts
But I feel the deeper resolution in my heart

Together now we sing of this mystery
A symbol of the trinity, unity in our diversity
I in you, and you in me
One voice, one life to glorify one King

The music of these mountains 
Is sweeping me away 
From melody, to harmony, to unity 

I love you not like lighted candles melting at their leisure
But like the fire that heats the stars
which know not quench or darkness
I love you, not by right of merit, deed or birth
I love you by the lavish grace of Him who loved us first

Monday, January 9, 2012

the story of 'Have I Told You'

there are a few songwriters who have been able to make me cry.

Derek Webb, Justin McRoberts, Andrew Peterson, Sanctus Real, Ben Shive, and Andy Gullahorn.

if you have the time, you should definitely check out their music. Derek's song Lover is from Jesus' perspective to us, and it moves me every time. Justin's song Safe, and two of his songs for his father, resonate deeply with me. Andrew Peterson's The Good Confession hit me like a punch to the gut when i was in a period of doubt about my faith. Sanctus Real's Lead Me is a powerful reminder to husbands/fathers that caught me by surprise on their last album, before it was an overplayed radio single. Ben Shive, who tours often with Andrew and Andy, has a mastery of melancholy/reflection in song form, and his The Ill-tempered Klavier was moving as a whole.  I'm digging into his new album The Cymbal-Crashing Clouds and the accompanying book of poetry/essay.  Andy Gullahorn's songs are a mix of tongue-in-cheek humor with deeply insightful metaphor, and he has the most songs that have moved me to tears, i think - More of a Man, Give it Time, and I Haven't Either, just to name a few.

this is a necessary intro to the story of Have I Told You - a song i wrote for my wife over 2 years ago.

i am heavily influenced by whatever i'm listening to at the time, and these songs by Andy Gullahorn in particular had been weighing heavily on me when it came time to write a song for my wife for our 2nd year of marriage. Give it Time was the most fresh on my mind, and so i was seeking to capture the emotional weight of this song with the combination of the clever way Gullahorn uses personal illustration in the verses of his song...

I really do have a hard time (sometimes) telling my wife how much i love her, and i realized that i never want to go 24hrs without literally saying it to her while also (hopefully) showing her. from this thought process, i arrived at 'have a told you today that i love you,' which i felt like was a pretty strong chorus thought, so i then worked backward to the more 'personal' verse stuff.  we were still 'newly-weds,' and Sarah was still in school at CU... so there's some of the context.

i was very pleased with how Sarah responded to this song, and it's probably my favorite song on the album to play.

here's the lyrics:


strange voices greet me as i awake
you forgot to turn of your radio alarm today
a little late, i hear you moving for the door
3 unused outfits spread across the floor...

have i told you today.. that i love you?

piles of dishes greet me as i enter the room
whatever you cooked smells wonderful, and so do you
i don’t mention that the trash can overflows
but i have a habit of telling you things you already know

have i told you today that i love you?

no room to sit, for all your papers, books, and clothes
and you look up at me with a tear drop on your nose
you say you’re overwhelmed, 'sorry it’s a mess'
i say 'come here' and pull you to my chest

have i told you today that i love you? 

did i mention that i trust you?
did i mention that i cherish you?
did i mention today how beautiful you are?

have i told you today
have i told you today
have i told you today, i love you.  

Thursday, June 16, 2011

the story of 'Living'

i have to be careful when i reminisce about college days - i can easily get lost in so many amazing memories and experiences, and before i know it i've been daydreaming for hours about all of the blessings from just a few years ago...

and by blessings, i mean people.  one of those blessings is Meg (Welsh) Cordes.  Meg is one of those thoroughly beautiful people who makes an immediate impact in your life when you meet her, and makes an immediate impact on a group of people when she is a part of it.  She was part of our team of worship leaders at the Campus Crusade for Christ ministry at CU, and she shared her gift of using sign language; this in addition to many other ways that she served her friends and the CU community through Cru, through being an RA, and through being a great friend. 

i had just started this crazy idea of writing songs for people getting married when Meg asked me if i would be willing to write one for her wedding.  Of course i said i would do my best - but in the back of my mind i had a hesitation - i didn't know her fiance at all!  I had not had the chance to meet Jason prior to their engagement, so i quickly realized that i was going to have to approach this song from Meg's perspective - and just to clarify, she is a girl and i am not - so i was in new songwriting territory at the time. 

here are the lyrics for 'Living' -

   I want to see love alive                                           
   In all the ways it’s described
   Love that’s stronger than death
   Love that covers our sin
   To see love alive
   As we lay down our lives
   In spite of all the words we try
   This love is more than what we say
   It’s alive

I’m safe when you hold me
Even if you don’t speak that you love me,
I know you do
Now you’re saying aloud you love me,
But your patience, your kindness,
your faithfulness show me you do
Our love is a picture
Of something much bigger than just the two of us

We’re speaking in terms of a love
that we haven’t really known yet, or had a chance to show
We’re speaking these words
that are given to us to pledge to each other
We’re placing this love on our fingers,
and writing it on our hearts

Now we’ll see love alive
In all the ways it’s described
Love through sickness and health
Love that covers our sin
We’ll see love alive
As we become one life
Before all of these witnesses today
This love is even more than what we say
It’s alive

i had a long phone conversation with Meg where i asked her about her now-husband, Jason, and i was able to draw some really great images out of the ways she described Jason, the way she felt about him, and the way she felt about marriage.  One of the things that she was most excited about was really being able to live out love in the context of their relationship, and that phrase stuck in my mind - seeing love alive in a relationship.  She also spoke of how Jason was already showing his love for her, not just talking about it. 

this song was written before i knew my wife well enough to craft a song for her voice (she was just my girlfriend then!), so i hope i pulled off the feminine perspective well, even though it's in a masculine voice :-)

if you've seen love alive in your relationships or marriage, feel free to leave a comment about it!